the Robin told me.

I asked God the other day what was the point of being "beautiful" to Him if no one else cares or sees it.

He said "to glorify me."

then I saw a robin.

and understood. (kinda)

but still.

I am starting a "biggest loser" contest this week.

I am a nervous eater.... let's face it. I am just an eater. period.

I am nervous. nervous that I will stay this way no matter what I do or how hard I try. No matter how much a starve myself... nor how much I work my butt off. also nervous that more and more people will join us and that person and that person and that person and that person will see how much I weigh on that weekly chart. there are already too many witnesses. sigh.

I have been going to the water park lately. and I get tanned. for some reason, I think this sun bathing should also serve as a weight loss mechanism. I am so tired after we leave, that I feel like the pounds should be dropping. but let's face it. sitting in the sun, reading a book does not drop those pounds off. oh well. at least I am tanned.